Just watched the hockey game.

Way to be, Canada.

You let me down.

But at least you're not completely out, right?

But, Eric Staal. What were you DOING? Jumping on that guys back? Piggy back fun time... not during the middle of a game.

Oh de foof.

But then Tessa Virtue and Scott Moir killed it. Ice dancers for the win. :) I kind of love the Olympics.

Who effing knows? Cause I don't. I can't choose.
I don't even know when the last time I updated this thing was... holy balls.

Ugh, life is just so dull and boring... and a bit stressful? Cause that makes TOTAL sense.
Christmas holidays begin Friday... I don't think I can handle the wait.

On the Debbie Downer side... I do not know what to do about these two people. Like, wtf? Have I done something? I'm just feeling so down around y'all, and I don't know what to do. Quit lying to me please.

On the Ursula Upside... Chelsea comes home on fucking Saturday. <3 We are hanging out, which is something LONG OVERDUE on Sunday. <3 I cannot wait to see that pretty face of hers. And we shall lol and lol until the cows come home. You know, like best friends do and should do.

But yes.
I don't really like randomly crying anymore, cause it's never really random anymore. It used to be like... "Oh, why am I crying? Whatever. I need it."

Now it's just like... "Didn't I cry like a baby last night? Whatever."

Please stop being such an emotional trainwreck, Kelly. I'm beginning to worry about you.
Love, Kelly.

Hi I'm Kelly and I need to be a better friend.
Hi I'm Kelly and I need to get over my trust issues.
Hi I'm Kelly and I need to learn that everything isn't always about me.
Hi I'm Kelly and I really hope you get over whatever you're feeling. And fast. :)
Hi I'm Kelly and I think I need you back.
Hi I'm Kelly and I need to stop being such a quitter.
Hi I'm Kelly and I want to quit.
Hi I'm Kelly and I can't give up on you. Or us.
Hi I'm Kelly and I love my friends.
Hi I'm Kelly and I wish you were honest.
Hi I'm Kelly and I'm sorry.
Hi I'm Kelly and I want you to forgive me.
Hi I'm Kelly and I let people down. A lot.
Hi I'm Kelly and I miss you.
Hi I'm Kelly and I'm stuck on the ground.
Hi I'm Kelly and I love the Vampire Diaries.
Hi I'm Kelly and I don't think I'm doing this right.
Hi I'm Kelly and I'm going to stop now.

But there isn't.
Life has been pretty lovely this summer. Not the best... some very not needed drama caused by me... but whatever. Live and learn, right? I can't apologize for everything, and yes, of course I feel like a huge bitch for it, but... it's done. And I want to get past it. And completely forget about it.

I miss Blues Fest. So fucking much. :( I look forward to it all year. Like, I love when Wendy comes up. I feel like I'm so much closer with her than I am my mom. I have absolutely no problem opening up to her about ANYTHING, and it's amazing. But, then she goes back home. Hopefully we actually stick to our word and go down there.
PERHAPS TAKARA WILL COME? CHILL WITH THE FAM IN CALGARY? Save me from my wacky family the entire trip? Sounds good. Besides, you and Scott are musical soulmates. Except he's gonna tune my guitar. ;)

LMFAO. I'm probably the lamest human being in the planet. But, I laugh at myself.

Camp tomorrow.
I miss my daddy.
:(

This is my only BIG trip this summer.
Which is kind of sad. I mean, there's Ottawa, but is that a trip? It's a once in a lifetime experience, especially with my best fraaaaaaaaand. But, am I going to make it a "trip"? I DUNNO.


BYE LIVEJOURNAL.
I LOVE YOU.

BEFORE I BEGIN... so I don't confuse myself.
I looooove all of my friends. There are just certain things that I don't love about you. Things that just drive me nuts. And this is what is on the list. I looooove my pals. <3

1. You're one of my best friends, but seriously yo, how can you treat people the way you do? Wait, scratch that. You treat me horribly. All the fucking time. I can recall like, one time when you haven't treated me like shit. I feel like a baby, but whatever. I'm sick of it. I love you and everything, but I can't handle being your punching bag. I feel like I'm always there for you, and you just don't care. I feel like I'm putting more into this friendship than you do. It isn't fair. If you aren't going to bother, then seriously, why should I?

2. I don't understand you. I really don't. I don't get your insecurities. You're beautiful, talented... but yet you're so insecure? People tell you this all the time, and it's like you refuse to accept it. Stop being hard on yourself all the time. Please. It sounds mean, but I just hate when people aren't confident and don't believe in themselves. It shouldn't, because that makes me a hypocrite. We all have insecurities, but yours are through the roof.

3. You jump from person to person. One day we're full of laughs, and the next, it's like harsh words were exchanged; incredibly awkward, and I don't know what to do. You are also one of my best friends, but I seriously don't get what goes on.

4. I don't think you've ever been my friend. We've never really been able to like, talk about anything. I think you're amazing, and I really wish we were closer. I don't know if I'M the reason we aren't as close as we could be, or if it's YOU. I really hope that someday we can like, become better friends.

5. What did I ever do to you?

6. I hate you.

7. I'm sorry.

8. Can you please just believe in me?

9. You're a waste. A waste of everything. Waste of space, waste of oxygen... what are you still doing here?

10. I'm not sorry. You deserved it. You have done so many horrible things. And then as soon as you're "forgiven", you just forget about it? Do you not realize how fucked up you've made everything? You did not deserve to get them back. The only reason you had me was because she never left you. She would never abandon you. But, my question is, where did she learn that? Because I know it wasn't from you. You run, you hide, you abandon. It's who you are, and you are disgusting. One day, you need to accept the fact that you aren't perfect. I tried to tell you once, and you couldn't accept it. You're a coward, as well. I don't want to see you.

11. Oh my gosh. There's so much that I want to tell you. Things I want to ask you. Why did you leave me? Nevermind me. How could you leave him? How could you leave her? How could you leave my dad? I'm not blaming you, I mean, you obviously couldn't help it. It's just unfair, and I miss you. Brian turns 40 on Monday, in case you forgot. :)

12. I don't tell you that I love you enough. I wish I could.

13. I don't think you realize how much I love you. You are incredible, and one of the people that I value the most in my life. I don't think I'd be able to handle losing you. Partly because I love you, and partly because you have inspired me. After everything you've endured over your lifetime, your heart is 10 times the size of any human being. Sure, sometimes you're stubborn, but so am I. I'd like to think that I'm a lot like you.

14. You're loud. You're obnoxious. You're annoying. I really hope you grow out of this.

15. Go away. Go away. Go away.

1. You. Are. A. Bitch. You're one of my very best friends, but you are a huge bitch. You treat peope (more me, or so I think) like shit, until you need them and it only benefits you. Then you're back to treating people like shit. I know it's not intentionally, and I trust you with my life, and I love you to absolute death. But you need to realize how you're treating people and how it makes them feel.

2. STOP IT. Stop whatever it is you're doing. You, are something else. Something else = bad right now. I don't -- Okay, before I continue; please note that I love every single one of my friends. I love them to the end of the planet, and I would lay my life down for them. I would do anything for them. These are just my bottled up frustrations making their debut. Never question the fact that I love you guys. :)

Continuing.

I don't understand how you can manage to do that. I really don't.

3. ....

I wish I could think of more.
 

This was a fail of epic proportions.
GOODNIGHT LIVEJOURNAL

I love you, best friend. Don't you ever forget it.

We need a day to ourselves.

To talk, and such. To get a lot of shit off of our chests. Regarding us, and other situations.

I love you, and I'm always here for you BB.

My mom's a fat bitch.
I didn't fucking hand you the remote right away and now you're not buying my grad dress? Well, you can fucking suck a dick. I hate you. I hate you I hate you I hate you.

On a brighter note..

GRAD PARTY WAS ON TUESDAY. Holy shit. It was so much fun. At least, it was until I screamed at Cassandra. Ugh. Too funny. Like, I feel horrible for calling her a fucking slut. I feel so bad!
But seriously, I wanna get drunk again. Right now.
I've become an alcoholic. How lovely.


Rawr. I hate my house.
I should just not go home. Cause she's a fucking cunt.

LOVE MY NEW ICON THING.
AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH.
HARRY POTTER.
PLEASE COME NOW.

I'M SORRY.
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough... I'm sorry..
I don't care...

you were never there